Im an IT contractor and had a long contract through lockdown. There was a miscommunication and I ended up spending much longer on the essential project than initially contracted in January, pre lockdown, thinking this was OK. My line manager sub contracted the management of me to a colleague. This manager / colleague was verbally understanding over March and April about the difficulties setting up from home ie no equipment for a month snd the challenge of home schooling while working. A
I clearly was not working at full productivity and was told verbally that we could take 20 percent longer on the project, which had been allowed for all members of the team, to get us through.
My my actual line manager has since gone through the stats and hit the roof and has insisted I only charge for 4 days work for every 10 worked for three months to make up for the shortfall.
Internally I have been very upset ranted to partner etc but on the emails I have raised my queries about what was said verbally, I have been told I was mistaken and that it is all my fault, despite not having the physical equipment with which I need to do my job for the first 4 weeks! Of course I don't want to continue working there and I have found another year long contract which will start when the time has been 'paid back', in 2 months.
I can take it on the chin, and I know that due to childcare issues and general lockdown stress i was not my most efficient self. Nothing was in writing from my line manager saying we could take longer on the project due to lockdown. I feel a good will gesture would have been they could have accepted that I was simply not set up to wfh for the first month which would mean that I was 70 per cent less behind on the project, and not put me through 3 months of less than half pay to 'pay it back', but rather more like about 4 weeks. I have a teams call with my actual manager who has not done any management of me since last march, ie I have not had a single phone or teams conversation since then, next Wednesday.
The emails have been really aggressive, I feel, from him in response to my querying the impossibility of being able to work over that time specifically in relation to the absence of the equipment necessary. But, I have conceded on everthing and apologised - because I know I could and should have done better and because I need to protect my professional reputation.
Will I be unreasonable to not drag myself over hot coals again in this meeting and accept 100 per cent of fault which he clearly will want me to do? I have taken this lack of payment on the chin for 3 months as a consequence and i really don't feel like he has a right to take the opportunity to give me a verbal bollocking.
I know I have cocked this up BTW please be gentle on me!