Just that really.
I've always struggled a bit but it's at an all time high. After so many months of being home, I'm finding going out and doing even the most basic tasks so so difficult.
Example. Yesterday I had to go pick a parcel up from the post office about a 15 minute drive away. I set off feeling ok. About half way between home and the post office I started feeling anxious and panicky. This makes me need to use the toilet (classic fight or flight). I became in a real panic as I was thinking I might have a wait at the post office, I was too far from home to turn around and I was getting desperate for the loo. In the end I had to take a detour to the nearest supermarket. Had I been at home that anxiety and urgent need for the loo wouldn't have happened.
This is something I'm experiencing whenever I try to do anything. And now public toilets are closing again it's actually a real problem for me. It makes me want to stay home but of course that makes it worse for the next time I have to go do something. I really don't know why I'm like this but it's ruining my life.
I've tried all sorts of therapies, exercise, meditation, breathing tricks. Nothing works. I'm considering speaking to my GP but I'm not sure if anxiety medication will curb such a strong physical response. I just feel trapped in my own home or at the mercy of my own body.