I've spent the past 10 years building up a business. From about April, demand fell significantly, and I now go for weeks with no clients at all.
I had got the self employed grant, but because my earnings go up and up and up each year (clearly not this year!) as things grow, doing 80% of the past 3 year average was significantly lower than I would have otherwise been earning. Then the 70% was obviously even worse .. the next one is 40% and I have no idea how I'm going to cope.
I made the decision to let my business go, because even though I adored it and worked so hard, it seems likely that it will struggle for a long time to come, and there's obviously not the help there for businesses like mine.
So I've been applying for all kinds of jobs. Apparently our supermarket get 60 applications per job, and they're hiring younger people because their minimum wage is less.
I do have a degree, but thanks to the fact I've spent 10 years doing this business, I'm not in practice in my area, I'm not up to date with studying - it just makes it useless, however I'm overqualified for lots of the jobs I'm applying for. One email feedback said they're looking for someone long term and it's likely I'd move back to work in my sector after covid (I actually haven't EVER worked in my degree sector, having taken the steps to start my business straight after graduation, but whatever).
So it seems I'm stuck and I can't win.
I hate the pressure this is putting on my partner. He's a keyworker working a load of overtime, and I'm grumpy and anxious because I'm sitting at home applying to jobs all day just getting rejection after rejection.
Not to mention I'm missing my family like mad.
I'll keep trying .. but things really ARE that bad.