I had a return to work meeting last week and I can't stop thinking about it.
Before I left for maternity, I was quite quiet, as had a fair few issues and was battling some demons privately, so to speak.
Since my child and what I would call a breakdown, I have been treated with antidepressants and having therapy. I've come from near suicide and nearly admitted to a psychiatric hospital to finally wanting to live my life.
When I went in, he said a few comments that made me feel uncomfortable. I hadn't told him any of my issues, but he was clever in asking what had happened.
He was commenting on how he perceived me, then suggested my worrying was like narcissism and said my family had caused all my issues. I was treated completely differently. I was so nervous and ended up talking too much.
They say there's no stigma with mental health but I disagree. He had never acted like that with me before and I'm so worried, even more so due to his job position.
It's made me question my progress and whether people only like me if I'm shy and say yes to everything.
I honestly don't know what to do. I have therapy next week and I'm at the point where I want to not turn up and instead run away and take all my pills.