To be utterly desperate for mental health help?

[Imdesperate]

I can’t keep fighting . I have anxiety, OCD and agoraphobia and autism . I’m having a hell of a time with continuous feelings of anxiety and a nagging worry that I’m going to suddenly fall ill . I can’t shake it off .

This afternoon I ended up with an ambulance as had a horrendous attack, they said call GP . GP rang back, was on phone for one minute forty seconds . Said they want me to take a huge dose of propanolol (80mg morning and night) and try to watch TV more .

I’m so, so so unhappy and scared and exhausted . I can’t even get up to pee some days .

I’m on a long waiting list for psychotherapy but have been told it could be years, not months, and could get cancelled at any moment because of covid . I don’t know what to do with myself .

I'm sorry to hear you are feeling like this. If you are already on a long waiting list for psychotherapy I'm assuming that support through talking therapies or similar has been ruled out as an option?
Have you tried any evidence based self help books?? Learning new CBT techniques may be helpful if you haven't tried before
Also support services like giveusashout, CALM and Papyrus are all available and are great support if you need to talk to someone.

All the best

I'm so sorry OP. I don't know what to suggest, my DM suffers from bi polar and is really struggling. I've had to go and stay with her just to stop her from doing something stupid. I've been unable to get any help for her either, they've upped her medication as well but that's nt doing anything

You won't get decent therapy on the nhs I'm afraid. Can you afford to pay for private therapy?

I've had both. Nhs CBT and counselling was absolutely useless. Private therapy was worth every penny. I had 5 years of private therapy and am a different person.

I hear you. You're going through such a horrid time and to feel dismissed by your GP makes it even worse. Do you have contact with the mental health team, or are they as useful as your GP? I have a CPN who keeps going on about gratitude journals, no idea what she expects someone to write when they see zero joy in life.

Is there anything that distracts you from how you're feeling? I cross stitch, it's not a solution but it takes the edge off things. If you've not tried it but you'd like some support to start, there's a lovely group on Facebook called Stitchers Against Anxiety. No judgment, and lots of people who understand how you feel.

I'd also go against your GP on the TV advice, there's nothing more anxiety inducing than the news at the moment!

I definitely can’t afford private therapy, no, unfortunately. I know the difference as I’ve had private help before but I definitely can’t afford to go that way this time ...

I had an assessment last week from a ‘well-being worker’ who said I was much more unwell than my GP thought I was, and said someone else will phone me back to assess again; but they don’t know when that will be .

I feel in a total mess . I’ve screwed up so much and I can’t get it sorted . No one in real life seems to want to hear me or help me .

Distraction I’m not sure . I have a few colouring books upstairs but that’s pretty much it unfortunately . I’m spending most days drifting from daytime TV to mumsnet and finding I’m getting more and more anxious about just getting out of bed in the mornings . I don’t know what to do .

@WhenISnappedAndFarted

I'm so sorry OP. I don't know what to suggest, my DM suffers from bi polar and is really struggling. I've had to go and stay with her just to stop her from doing something stupid. I've been unable to get any help for her either, they've upped her medication as well but that's nt doing anything

❤️❤️ I’m sorry you’re in that position . My mum has quite severe MH issues, I’m quite sure that her issues haven’t helped me at all sadly . It’s very difficult ❤️

There doesn’t seem to be any mental health care on the NHS unless you are unwell enough to be sectioned. I temped in a psychiatry clinic and every day people would phone up and sob / shout down the phone as they couldn’t be seen for months.

Some charities offer help for free if you are on a low income.