Hi
Just posting out of curiosity as lockdown has really brought out some emotions in me I hadn't expected.
Prior to lockdown I was the organiser of nearly all the social events I attended, I'd be the one organising meals and meet ups etc as well as making sure I was sending everyone's birthday cards and gifts so that they arrived in time etc.
It's been a horrible few years for my family and me and my DH and I guess I haven't been as "bright and light" as I was but equally I never cry or complain to friends. I would never want to be a burden and care deeply about people.
It's dawned on me throughout all of this that whilst I have lots of friends dotted around... I don't have anybody who really knows much about what's going on in my life right now. There's nobody who i think would choose me as their closest friend or visa versa...
My DH and I watched a documentary the other day where a woman's best friend reported her missing within hours.
I joked that it would probably be weeks or months before anyone would notice I was missing!
Am I alone in feeling this way? Is there something wrong me? I feel very lonely at times despite having a lovely family and wonderful DH....
