I am finding things extremely challenging right now. And I know that they are many times worse for other people.
I am having to deal with several redundancies at work due to the current situation. I have found and am finding much of this really traumatic....am being forced to do harm to people and that goes against the grain really. I am in a better position than many in that I do have a job (at least for now).
At home I am looking after a severely disabled adult DS.....I live in dread of his residential college being cancelled and him needing to come home and be cared for by us. Several students are coming down with potential COVID symptoms.
Not that I mind at all caring for him, but it would be restricting for him and that I do mind, I had several months of caring for him alone and working from home during lockdown....that was extremely challenging to both of us. I don't want a repeat of that although if it comes to that again of course I will do it for DS sake.
DS doesn't really understand why everything is changed, why he is confined to his own room at the college and can't mix with other students in his classroom. Sometimes he takes that out on us.
In the meantime I am working from home because I can't go in the office. Some colleagues don't care that we are all under pressure and are quite rude and demanding.
These are my challenges....others have theirs, equivalent and worse. I am not especially hard done by, most of us are suffering.
I am keeping on going though finding all this so incredibly hard. And I know I am not alone. How do you keep going, and wait and hope for better times? I am sure they will come.
Here is a reminder of why life is good: