Feeling a bit anxious

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Sat at home at the moment watching telly because i cant sleep!

Its covid related, i will be honest, although i have taken all the advice from the goverment serious, with lock down, wearing a mask etc, i was never to worried about catching it because it was just me and my wife and daughter, my wife was on maternity leave at the height of the pandemic!

Well now she is back at work, she is a nurse and up and till today her ward was a green ward, well now its a red ward, they have 4 confirmed cases on the ward, and she is working the next 4 days!

So in my head, she is gonna catch it and in turn bring it home to me and baby, we are both worried about about baby catching it, but also me, i have underlying health conditions, im type 1 diabetic, im a smoker(i know i know)!

Now its become a reality im scared shitless!
Dont really have a aibu, i just wanted somewhere to vent as im trying to hide the fact im scared from my wife because i dont want to worry her to much!

I don't have any advice but that must be really worrying OP

Its normal to worry in that situation. What would help the worry is to actively do things that make you feel more in control. I'd say the obvious one is cut way down on the smoking. You need to be as healthy as you can anyway never mind Covid, for you,your partner & your baby. Doing nothing makes catastrophising & anxiety spiral. It also helps to challenge catastrophising & negative thoughts with the reality, in writing. That helps you see/reinforces a concrete & rational take on things when you're panicky & losing perspect. You could also think about other proactive strategies with your partner that would make you both feel safer re hygiene when returning home: but as a Nurse they're probably well up on what needs to happen .

That sounds tough OP. But if comforting try to remember your wife will have full PPE and will be practising all the right procedures.

*perspective, not perspect!

@CSIblonde

Its normal to worry in that situation. What would help the worry is to actively do things that make you feel more in control. I'd say the obvious one is cut way down on the smoking. You need to be as healthy as you can anyway never mind Covid, for you,your partner & your baby. Doing nothing makes catastrophising & anxiety spiral. It also helps to challenge catastrophising & negative thoughts with the reality, in writing. That helps you see/reinforces a concrete & rational take on things when you're panicky & losing perspect. You could also think about other proactive strategies with your partner that would make you both feel safer re hygiene when returning home: but as a Nurse they're probably well up on what needs to happen .

I been diagnosed for just over a year now, i had a mental list of things i needed to change, diet, exercise, lose weight etc and in my head the smoking was gonna be the hardest thing for me to give up, so i put it at the back of my list, sorta had a 2 year goal to sort everything!