To consider re-starting smoking?

[SuperEkstra]

Three years ago I was a size 10. I ran 10ks 4 times a week. I looked great. But I smoked.

I quit smoking. It was really hard. And I'm now a size 20. I've put eight stone on. I've tried every way to lose weight. Everything's great for a week, then I can't stick to it.

Please don't recommend diets that have worked for you, as I guarantee I've tried them. I can't make it last. I feel like I need the dopamine 'high' from smoking which has been replaced by food.

I'm honestly at the point that I'm considering starting smoking again - I'm going to die of obesity at this point anyway, so I guess I'd rather be happier and thinner in the mean time.

I know it's a stupid idea, but I'm so so miserable. I hate myself and my inability to stick to a reasonable about of food. I'm disgusting.

God I miss smoking.
I miss the time to myself.
I miss the release it gave me.
I liked the smell. I still linger behind someone who is smoking because I enjoy it.

But I know it’s bad for me. I felt it in my chest the next morning. My clothes stank. The cost is now astronomical and I felt embarrassed buying them with my child in the buggy.

Since giving up my chest feels better. My skin looks better. I’ve saved money and I’ve lost the shame that comes with being a smoker.

I did put some weight on at first. It’s harder to lose as you get older imo.
In my case I had to get control over what I was eating in the evening. I had to identify where the problem was and then do something to break it. It was really, really hard but I did it. Now I’m a normal weight again and I still don’t smoke. You can do it OP, it’s just a case of finding what works. Good luck.

Have you tried something like NLP or Hypnosis that can help you to break the anchors of why you eat and also the benefit that you feel smoking will give you?

Not only is smoking so bad for your health but it costs a fortune. You are better off spending the money to break patterns of behaviour that lead you to feel you need to eat/smoke than go back to a bad to cure another bad habit.

You need to get yourself off this hamster wheel.

You don't need to "diet" you just need to eat a healthy balanced diet!

You would be very foolish to start smoking again.

I put over one stone on over the course of one year when I stopped smoking. So, I stopped over eating and started making small consistent changes that I knew I could maintain. Start off by keeping a note of everything you've eaten : drank for a few days. If you feel the need to eat ask yourself I you are actually hungry.

You don't need to starve yourself to lose weight. You basically need to be in a calorie deficit to lose weight. Start moving more in your day.

Don't do it! You will not lose weight and could put on more giving up for a second time.

Have you thought about nicotine gum / lozenges / drops? It could just take the edge off without the muscle memory addiction.