I am finding more and more lately that I am struggling to cope with setbacks and uncertainty caused by covid issues.`
I have had loads of childcare issues since March and many arguments with my employer about flexible working. I can work from home except when I have external work matters to deal with and I have worked from home from end March to start of Sept (had to threaten to leave the job to get agreement for this).
I had massive difficulty getting a childminder when my children went back to school (the previous childminder didnt want to do it anymore). I got a local college student who has babysat for me for years and I really trust her. I just found out that her new timetable for college means she cant mind the kids anymore so from Friday I have no childcare again.
Dh's job cannot be done from home, he works a very busy customer facing role and is the only person in the company who does the job so he is under massive pressure from him boss to be present at all times. We will sit down this evening to try to work a plan but I feel sick to be going through this all again.
I keep bursting in tears, I cant eat, I'm so distracted. I feel like my resilience is getting so low. I had to sit in my car and cry last week outside Tesco's as I went into the wrong queue (when into the scan one by accident). I just feel totally overwhelmed.
I am so busy in work, I have been given a contact that involves me travelling around the country. I told my boss I couldn't do it but she expects me to organise someone else from the office to go if I cant (I told her at interview I wasn't in a position to travel for the job). There is only 3 others I can ask and most times they refuse. I have loads of these meetings coming up in the next few weeks and I am so stressed out about them.
I am so close to getting signed off sick or leaving my job.
Am I alone?