Is there such a thing? I'm not depressed but I'm so cut off from the world. I feel like I have a secret or in living life as an actor. I had an abusive childhood, yet I've never really dealt with it. I just carry on, I have a nice life yet I always feel disconnected. I really love my kids and I know I'm a great mum. But even then, I am waiting for the day my kids never want to see me again. I'm prepared. It's hard to explain. I have lots of friends, but close to nobody. I'm wondering how to fix this? I can't afford therapy, but even then I think I don't need it. But I know I do because I would like to feel connections. Any advice would be helpful!