To wake up feeling suicidal every morning?

[Worryworry00]

Every morning I wake up and feel such utter sadness and pointlessness in the day ahead.every day feels like groundhog day.i never bounce out of bed,its like I've got no joy in me.
In my head I constantly revisit a lifetime of regrets and now at 50 years old,I'm told old to change my life and fulfill any dreams and to be honest I just dont have the energy or will anymore.
I have three adult children,two self sufficient and one with additional needs.To the outside world I'm happy, I put on a great face but inside I have this overwhelming urge to end it all.

I've felt like this for the past three years,I'm on anti depressants and they have helped me,but the thought has never left.i feel like I'm constantly organising life and things for my kids to prepare for when I'm not here.

I dont know what I expect from posting.just wanted to say it all out loud.

I think you need to speak to your doctor again OP. Have you ever had any therapy? I hope you can feel better soon. Lower mood in the morning is often linked to depression but fighting those thoughts can be exhausting and there should be help there for you. Take care of yourself.

Oh worry, I’m so sorry to hear that. Is it things like your job you think you can’t change, or relationships? Do you have any support?

Thinking of you OP. When I wake up tomorrow morning I will wonder how you are, and will hope you have a lovely day.

Please @Worryworry00 make an appointment to see your doctor tomorrow or reach out to someone and have a chat. Maybe they can try a different medication or help in some other way.

I am really sorry that you are feeling like this. It must be really hard going at the moment. There are people out there who can help you and you are not as alone as you think you are.

The Samaritans
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Best wishes and take time to help yourself

Your ADs aren't working. There are lots of different ones and you may have to try several before you see a real improvement. Please go to your GP. You sound seriously depressed.

Whereabouts are you with the menopause? Your depression began at a point where a lot of women start to enter into peri menopause and these feelings can be linked.

I'm not saying they are. But I am saying that considering HRT could be a path to walk down

but, again, GP first thing tomorrow!

Gosh this is very sad OP.

I agree go back to doctors, can you talk to anyone in real life?

The Samaritans are always there if you need help.

www.samaritans.org

Please talk to your GP and be honest with them about how bad it has got. There is help out there! And there will be better times than this. Wishing you all the best.

That sounds very hard and lonely OP.
Looking after others when you so badly need looking after yourself.

Definitely you need to be franker with your GP.

@IvanTheDragon

Please talk to your GP and be honest with them about how bad it has got. There is help out there! And there will be better times than this. Wishing you all the best.

Agree with this. Very much rooting for you OP

I have had suicidal depression. But there is help out there. This too will pass. Please get back to us - I'm worried about you.

Sorry you’re feeling this way OP

I tend to deal with depression from time to time and can end up feeling this way. Finding a deeper purpose and meaning in life is probably what you need. Have a listen to Dr Wayne Dyer (he’s a spiritual teacher) on YouTube and take a look at some of his books his voice alone can lift me out of dark moods.

I always just see the depression I feel sometimes as a passing dark cloud in the sky - feel the feeling but don’t become it will pass. It could also be the menopause and fewer hormones causing a dip in your mood so maybe look into ways to boost hormones naturally etc. It’s never to late to make changes in your life 50 is still young just a different season in life but it can still be beautiful.