To ask if this is child neglect?*trigger warning*

[Bluedoor11]

Trying to go to sleep but can’t stop thinking about this.
I’ve been suffering with anxiety for many years, but it’s been particularly bad since my DD was born 6 years ago.
I’ve been to therapy and I’m currently on medication, but I still have plenty of bad days.
My husband recently mentioned if I’d ever considered it may be PTSD, because of my childhood. At the time I was surprised - I always thought I had a crappy childhood but honestly never thought about PTSD. But this is now playing on my mind - was my childhood just a bit crappy, or actual child neglect?
The context is - 3 siblings, poverty and mental health issues in the family.
Some examples playing in my mind:

• house extremely dirty, I was ashamed of it and always tried to avoid having friends over
• Clothes often dirty
• Constant fights between parents, particularly about money. Calling each other names.
• Fights between my brothers and parents, that got physical on many occasions.
• I remember being hit by my mother. Not often, but more than just spanking.
• I don’t remember ever being kissed or cuddle by my parents. Maybe I was, but I honestly can’t remember.
• I hated weekends and holidays, I just wanted to be in school and avoid being at home.

There are many other examples ...
I honestly never thought about it as neglect, could this just be parents struggling with life in general?

@notwhattheydo

Seriously imworthit, the fact that the OP was subjected to violence in childhood, has anxiety today, would never, ever have come up in a therapy session?

Re-read what I said. Multiple issues are probably causing her anxiety. She chose to talk about her work issues. They focused on that. That was an immediate issue which could be practically dealt with. Professional counselling usually handles one issue at a time.

Yes this was neglect.

No, it's not neglect.

It's abuse AND neglect. You were treated horribly, and lack of finances is not an excuse.

My childhood was very similar. I adopted my son last year and as part of the adoption process had to talk about my childhood. It wasn't until I read the report our social worker prepared which stated I had suffered emotional abuse and neglect that it hit me. I had always thought I'd had a bit of a shitty childhood but didn't realise how bad until it was there in black and white. It takes a while to come to terms with and I think it's the source of much of the anxiety I've had throughout my life. I'm really sorry this happened to you OP.