I've done it on and off my whole life. But for the last month I've been enjoying being in bed just so I can daydream about a different life. I'm more free in this life. I'm busier. I have fun. I'm prettier. I'm able to drive and have a different partner. Even though I love my partner and kids in real life. I think everything has become mundane. I'm present in the day and everything. But I know it's a coping mechanism. Real life has become a chore this year. All the lovely parts have been stripped. The days out, seeing friends, seeing family, going out, having holidays. I wandered if other people do this? I think I'm abit lonely thanks to lockdown. It's quite sad that the happier part of my life is this isn't it. Hope I'm not alone. Currently laid in the bath because everyone fell asleep wondering if I'm a fruit loop!