Is this normal? Before I had my DC I was often impressed with my own inner strength. I lost DM to a horrible disease and it gave me a fire in my belly to tackle life. I think I was doing really well, I was very positive and optimistic and coped really well.
Then I had my DC and now feel like a mess. I mean I am OK, I think I am a good mum, am managing a relationship and career but inside I feel so overwhelmed and anxious and weak all the time. I constantly imagine the worst case scenarios and am petrified that if life throws me a curveball I just won't cope as I am extra aware that I won't have my mum for support.
I don't know if it's a normal part of having children amd the sense of responsibility, or a normal part of grief (i.e. losing my mum was so terrible I went into fight mode for survival but it's now wearing off).
How do I fix it? I desperately want another DC but have been putting it off for over a year as I am convinced that if I don't have a perfect easy baby I will crumble.