Posting for traffic. Basically lockdown has made me mentally ill for the first time in my life. It's anxiety not depression. I'm not suicidal. I don't want to die. I'm happy some days more than others. But I am just on edge and panic abit. I am walking and things but not able to walk as far as usual. Not confident to be out for more than an hour. I have trouble falling asleep and staying asleep. So I'm functioning enough for the kids and some days I'm quite positive. But others I'm just worrying.
We went for a walk this morning and I managed to walk 3/4 of the way to the school (practising the walk again) but decided to turn around as my energy was zapped and I didn't want to push myself too much. We did two miles but I had a wobble so I feel like ive failed.
I've spoken to my doctor who said about the two options being meds and talking. But the list is loooooong for therapy and meds are short term for anxiety. It said about anti depressants but said they take a while to kick in and he acknowledged side effects like nausea are common to start with. I can't cope with nausea if I need to leave the house. It's something I struggle massively with and I I don't want to make myself have more problems.
Anyhow after today I said to my partner that I probably should consider the meds option. He's been depressed himself in the past and he's had therapy and his therapist has always said. Antidepressants do have a place but it's a small place. Which is correct but gps don't have the time to support you through therapy and things. You have to have alot of money to support yourself and I don't. So my options are limited. My partner's asked me to have a try at EFT which he used two years ago when struggling. I am willing to try but apprehensive. Has anyone successfully done this tapping exercise at home and felt better.
Also kalms. I have some but do I try them?
symptoms I have
*Fight or flight mode sometimes
*Feel nervous being too far from home
*Can't face a day out or travelling too far with the kids. Tried this three weeks ago and I spent the rest of the week anxious and really down.
*When panic sets in I get
*Weakness
*Poor concentration
*Mild nausea
*Heart races
*Dry mouth
Panic attacks only happen in the night and they usually involve trembling and wobbly breathing. Thankfully these are rare, I've had three since march.
I have never been in this situation. But I don't want anymore side effects. Drowsy and nauseous is the last thing I want. I don't want headaches either or to feel numb.
What would you do? I'm trying to expose myself more and stay out longer but it's so hard when I'm dragging the kids along.