Thank you for your views, I appreciate hearing both sides!
@KarmaStar it's not as odd as you think! Although I don't expressly have the same views, there has to be a reason why I feel so at home there as opposed to my own country. I can't say what first led me there. I first visited a long time ago and (literally) within ten minutes, I knew I was going to move there. I did and as I say, spent over ten years there. It just feels 'right', I cannot put it into words. I loved all things Scottish growing up, despite not having one single link to the place. It's like it calls me. No idea why! My heart says go and my head says stay. Head purely with a financial hat on and a 'don't uproot' the family again point of view. I can't travel back, we can't anyway in the pandemic, but if we could, it would cost too much for a holiday for all of us and then take years to save again if we moved back.
@IlovecatsyesIdo I live in a place that doesn't get the really hot temps, more top of under 30, even in the height of summer. Creepie crawlies I don't love, but they're not crawling all over your house and even in your mind/view every day so they don't bother me. I used to get bigger house spiders in my house in Scotland every September! I have discussed it with my OH. At first he was just very angry - why did we even bother (it was hugely expensive to move here). I understood, completely. He sort of came around to the idea but we never took the next step. Pandemic put a stop to everything and as the days go by, he and our child are getting more happy and settled so I just feel the idea is slipping away with every month that goes by.
@FredaFrogspawn I didn't start the post with AIBU? How much longer should I give it do you think? I think near the four year mark is enough to know if you like something and have given it a good go, but maybe not.
@LioneIRichTea ha ha yes! Good point. Although I have experienced midges before when camping and oh my Queen Anne Bed they are horrendous!! Easily drive you to insanity.
@BackwardsGoing and @YeahWhatevver good points. It's easy to just see the good and forget about the 'bad'. I have to say, as I lived there for ten years I know all about the things you're speaking of and it didn't really affect my life too much at the time. Fat men wearing kilts probably did though in some negative subconscious way 
. Have you seen how much Aussies drink? And take recreational drugs?
@ScrapThatThen very good advice. The weird thing is that I live in a place that everyone thinks looks like Scotland. It's stunningly beautiful. I absolutely agree, but it just "feels" different.
@Cheesewine thanks :-) was sorry to read of the rain and flooding. We've had quite a bit of it here of late also, cars right underwater. All I can say, is hopefully good for the farmers! Rainwater tanks will be full.
@NoMoreReluctantCustodians thank you, here's a bunch back 
@Skyliner001 thanks
Ahh if only this wasn't so hard. Wages are better here. More sunshine and, where we live, not too hot in the height of summer. Beautiful location to live in. Jobs. Have, luckily, only experienced nice welcoming people. OH and DS happy and thriving. Reacquainting with lovely old friends. What's not to like! I wish I could figure out why I can't be happy here.