To be over my work and not know what to do

[Midlifelights]

I feel bad posting this when so many people are losing work and on one level I am grateful to have a currently secure job (even tho it might change)

I work in student support advice role at a university & it’s well paid and it was interesting until the pandemic. It was face to face guidance & help & some teaching & I enjoyed it.

Since the pandemic it’s just been one big endless series of joyless zoom meetings and it’s sucked me dry. I have no enthusiasm or drive or anything left to give. I feel like I can’t bear to do another day and opening my laptop for yet another day of zoom makes me feel ill. It’s looking like the autumn term will be delivered online and I can’t face it.

Aibu? My job has totally changed and requires a totally new set of skills that I hate. It’s making me a wreck sitting in my bedroom doing joyless meeting after joyless meeting.

I know I should be grateful for a well paid job but it’s literally breaking my soul too.

Aarrggh.

@OntheWaves40on so if you have it so hard, why don't you quit? my point is OP is having a hard time and a flippant be grateful for what you've got response is not helpful in the slightest. It could easily be turned back on you. Being a keyworker doesn't make you entitled to dismiss someone who is actually doing a very important job too.

Could you do some f2f meetings if you wore PPE? Maybe worth asking your manager?

I think On the Waves is getting a hard time here. She didn't say 'quit'. She said the equivalent of the grass isn't always greener on the other side.

OP lots of people are naffed off at the moment. Is it possible to get away for a couple of days? Even if it's camping or something

I sympathise. This working from home doesn't suit everybody. But some people love it. If it's well paid just stick it out for the time being unless you have a burning desire to try something else. And even then it's a big risk.

I could have written this OP. I can't bear the thought of another zoom call. Currently lying on the sofa listening when an email comes in. It's been going on too long. Yes, I'm grateful to have a job but right now I don't really have the drive to positively reframe any of this. Hang in there, nothing lasts forever. An attitude of platitude rather than gratitude ha