Currently in hospital, have requested each night that I don't get given morphine and each night it's been respected until last night. Haven't gone into the reasons why with everyone but one doctor is aware.
Obviously, this means I am only asking for paracetamol and they are giving me a codeine to take when I feel safe. Neither of these are working that well but I have been managing with that for the last ten days.
Last night I was given two doses of morphine. It really affected me badly, I was dizzy, slurry and not feeling safe at all.
Content Warning: Sexual Assault.
I had had morphine before I was sexually assaulted a few years ago (on the way home form the hospital) so I am really hesitant to take it at night when I am already feel less safe. Night are trauma horrific for me, as is being in hospital.
I got really scared and then mad when I realised , was upset and shouted that the reason I have continually requested no morphine was because it was one of the factors that led to me being raped.
I just can't work out who is being unreasonable. I feel like it was unreasonable for me to raise my voice but that they really should offer me an apology.