Urgh this is health related but posting here for traffic.
I had my gallbladder out in Feb and ever since I've had pain where the primary incision is, it's healed over ok but the pain is inside. It feels almost like my stomach is protruding further than it should, if that makes sense, but again looks relatively normal from the outside.
I am a fat person, this is probably relevant.
The week after I had surgery my son started coughing and it was literally the first week that the self isolation rules all kicked in. We all got ill with, probably, Covid. It was dire.
Then I had to parent two small kids while my DP tried to WFH. So lots of bending, lifting, driving etc. Like, a week after surgery.
And even though the holes have all closed up I still have pain in the area where my gallbladder was, and it's often bad enough for me to need opiates.
There's an extra layer of treacle to wade through, my mum died of pancreatic cancer ten years ago and I have PTSD from (amateur) nursing her through the final stages of that. So anything abdominal triggers the fuck out of me.
I'm a bloody mess. I'm not shitting everywhere anymore thanks to the gallbladder being gone but now I'm mainly constipated and in pain. Today I lifted a bag of cat litter into the boot of my car and nearly screamed in pain.
I'm sorry, this is all just a big long rant really.
Anyway, I've fucked myself haven't I? How can I unfuck myself without going insane?