I’m having an epically bad day today, I don’t know what to do with myself. I’ve been feeling like I can’t even talk to anyone because I don’t want to burden other people and maybe no one will understand, or they won’t be on my side and I just need someone to be on my side, because I feel alone right now.
I had a 2nd miscarriage (MMC + Medical Management) a week ago, and am still struggling with it because I feel like a failure, like I’m broken and I may never have a baby, but I am trying to take it one day at a time because I know I won’t be ok overnight.
Last night, some friends who knew about my miscarriage and know I am struggling with it decided it was the right time to tell my husband “they” are pregnant, not even past the first trimester, so didn’t need to be announced yet. They couldn’t even give us space and consideration to deal with our grief before telling us. Even after we said to them we had kept my pregnancy quiet from them for as long as possible to spare their feelings after a miscarriage they had six months ago, and only told them on the day of the Medical Management because they had been suspicious something was going on after we asked for a small favour.
I am so angry, I feel like I might explode. Is it that unreasonable to hope for others to consider how I might be feeling just a week later? And realise this news would only be unnecessary frustration at a bad time, and maybe wait a little longer before saying something!? This friend has been so angry every time she heard about another person’s pregnancy since her miscarriage so I thought she might be more understanding. I am heartbroken and at a time when I had hoped my friends would be sensitive & supportive, they have been the opposite.