To have a rant

[Dollycarton81]

Honestly cannot carry on like this much longer. This situation has got me feeling like I'm failing in every area of my life.

I am trying to take 2 days annual leave minimum per week to spend with dc during the holidays. Trying to have days out to the beach, farm parks, walks. Nothing feels the same though. It's joyless. And it still means for the other days of the week where I'm working from home they are spending excessive time on iPads, consoles and TV. I feel so guilty.

Because of my annual leave I'm getting behind at work. New measures in place since working from home make my job a lot harder and I'm failing to keep up.

The house is always a tip because we're always here. I never seem to get on top of everything.

I've found my tolerance for people (even friends) has never been lower and have actually fallen out with a few people lately. Not sure if it's because we're all highly strung at the minute or issues that run deeper. Probably both.

I'm constantly eating crap and drinking too much because I'm bored and it's a comfort so I've put on over a stone since March. I look and feel like shit. My mental health is shot.

I know compared with that some have been through this all sounds trivial but I'm truly feeling so down.

I love your user name 😂. Op are you putting yourself under huge amounts of pressure here? Instagram worthy 2 days per week is too much. What about spending the additional two days cooking healthy food to make you feel better and cleaning and tidying the house and getting all the gubbins done and go for a long walk so that at least on the working days you know you have everything organised and the house is decent. Are the kids pulling their weight. I would write off this summer and have fun next summer. I agree going out is shit and joyless at the moment.

Big (((((Hugs))))😟🌼🍷

I just feel so guilty for the days I'm working and they are fending for themselves that I feel on the two days off I need to take them out and hashtag make memories no it's not even that, its just to make myself feel better I suppose. But so far it has been mostly shit.

Usually I would be at work and they would be at clubs (not happening this year) or with their dad or my parents who both seem to think that because I'm working from home I'm therefore on call for childcare. In fairness my parents have taken them out a few times for a walk but it still seems like an overwhelming amount of time spent on screens.

It’s unprecedented times and therefore if spending time using screens is what is needed then go with it.

@IwishIhadaMargarita i suppose I don't have much choice but it stresses me out to see them constantly on screens and makes me feel like I'm failing. I know these aren't normal times but it doesn't remove the guilt factor.

How old are they?
Do they spend time at their dads house too?
It sounds like you're exhausted and it's no surprise!

Same

The problem with screens is that they stop kids doing other stuff, but when there is no other stuff, in lock down, the screens are not so bad.

They are primary age 7 and 9 and yes they do spend time at their dads EOW which gives us all a break and change of scenery. I try to use that time to tidy up and clean and prepare for the next week. But sometimes I just veg out and I do very little to be honest. I'm stuck between being run of my feet and enforcing these days out just so I can say we've done something and then being totally unproductive because I'm fed up and exhausted. It's a shit time.