Aibu to be stupidly anxious about this?

[Worrierallthetime]

Ok so I know I am probably BU.

I suffer from Generalised Anxiety Disorder and over the last year I have managed to get off my meds. I had to give up work due to my anxiety (have good and bad days) but have been managing well recently (for me) and have started to challange myself.

DP lost his job at the start of covid so we have been managing on savings and a tiny bit of benefits since then. Hes been looking for work but is having no luck. I've managed to get a few hours a week waiting on in a restaurant. Later today is my first shift and I'm an anxious mess. On the verge of a panic attack, feel sick. I know I can do this. I just need to get there and I will be fine.

Can I have a hand hold and a kick up the ass please? There is a chance of more hours if i can make a good impression and we need the money.

Sorry just needed a bit of a moan. Stupid anxiety

Yeah the feeling of having actually succeeded in doing something that pushes me to my limits is great. I know I have the ability to do so many things but the constant "what ifs" and the playing of every conceivable situation in my head usually means I cant cope and chicken out. Feels amazing to conquer something. I still know I'm going to spend the time until my next shift analysing everything but I'm hoping after a few more shifts that will stop

Yes OP, you rock! So glad you managed to stick 2 fingers up at the anxiety imp and do it anyway. Next shift will be easier as you know you can do it. Enjoy your wine, you’ve earned it!

Well done

Great news! If they're offering you extra shifts already they must be really happy with you.

Well done op

Just wanted to update you lovely people. So I've done a few shifts and have been fine. Have really enjoyed it

Today I had a message offering me more hours on a permanent basis and I am made up. It's still not a huge amount of hours but it feels great to be earning some money. I'm still anxious before i go in but i now know i can do it.

So glad you all gave me the push i needed to get to that first shift. Thank you

I didn’t see this when you first posted but what a lovely thread. I’m really pleased for you and it sounds like it’s all going great

@Worrierallthetime this is a fantastic thread. You’ve really highlighted that although meds and other treatments have their place, an important part of life for all of us, whatever our mental health is to keep on taking those small steps out of our comfort zone. Feeling anxious about new situations and Worrying we won’t cope well are common feelings - well done you for pushing beyond that. And you’re absolutely right that it’s only when we do that, that we get that buzz of achievement. Keep on keeping on!

I came to this thread late but I’m so happy for you. Well done.

Well done, I'm really pleased for you 🌺.
You can do it, and even if you have the odd bad shift just remember all the good ones you have done.

Ah I didn’t see this when you first posted but OP how amazing are you doing!
I am genuinely made up for you, well done!

Late to your thread OP, but just wanted to say congratulations. Well done
Great about the message about extra shifts permanently. You must be doing something right. Go you!!x

Brilliant! I'm so pleased, onwards and upwards op

Ah I'm so proud of you! How amazing you are to manage all this and GAD, fellow sufferer here and your posts have been really inspiring I'm registered disabled to due to my MH problems but your story gives me hope one day I can change that too so thank you.

Well done to you!!

Well done OP. Cheers

That’s great news-well done op-you should be very proud of yourself! You rock 🙌

Ahhh thank you everybody. I'm just home after a very busy shift. It's strange that I can hold it all together whilst there but then I get home and let all my anxiety out. Its bloody knackering!

I'm feeling more proud of myself after every shift. I still know that I will have my bad days and getting out of bed will feel like a mammoth task but I'm hoping that they happen on days I'm not working.

I done 6 hours surrounded by people/customers in work then struggled keeping a panic attack at bay on the way home when I popped to the shop for a pint of milk. The Joy's of GAD!

Once again, thank your for the support. And like pp said it really feels like moving forward from here.

This put such a smile on my face - well done and glad lovely DH celebrated your success too

Just seen this post for the first time OP. Congratulations and well done. What courage you have shown. You should be very proud of yourself. 🙌👏

@Worrierallthetime I think you need a name change - you’re now warriorallthetime!

Well done OP! I hope you enjoyed your shift. Have a lovely weekend x