Do I need to grow some balls?

[Sandywandypandy]

I have name changed for this and I promise I’m not trying to drop feed I just don’t want to put myself.

I’ve worked for a company for nearly 2 years, I do love my job and what I do although these is a lot of pressure to “perform” and hit my targets.
I work in a small office, there is about 20 of us. Since coming back from being furloughed and then wfh, I got put in a separate part of the building. Which is fair enough- social distancing etc. But the other 19 people are still in the main office, just spaced out. So 5 days a week for full days I’m completely isolated from everyone. I’m not being petty and I know there is much bigger things going on but I do feel a bit like the odd one out.

In the past, I’ve felt really like I’m not valued at all, it’s never what I’m doing right but always what I’m doing wrong. WFH was an absolute nightmare, I’m a single mother of twins and had no outside help when we were in full lockdown- yet my manager kept making remarks about “having a chat” if I didn’t put 100% into my work.

I’ve tired to have a chat with him and he did it infront of another colleague whilst we were locking up so I couldn’t really say how I felt as I felt embarrassed at him putting me on the spot when I had messaged him in private. I’m working my backside off, even on my days off to try and help the business recover and it’s never enough. Every idea I have is ignored, every problem I’ve faced dealing with clients is usually caused by me apparently not doing enough.

I’m just so unhappy and anxious about it all, I have no job security and constantly feel like if I have a bad month then I’m going to be out on my ear. I know this is so minor and I’m lucky to have a job and I’m massively grateful, but am I right in feeling like this or do I need to just man up and get on with it? Xx

Are there a few things you could do to gain more control of the situation perhaps?

• Ask to see your manager and ask directly why you’ve been isolated
• Ask for clarity about what is expected of you this month target wise (you may already know this)
• If you’re not achieving similar results as others in the same position, ask for an understanding of their ‘good practice’ tips and things you could do differently

So rather than throw in ideas, focus on what you can do to improve, learning from others. They are much more likely to listen to your ideas if you’re doing well and showing that you’re actively trying.

They might just be knobheads but at least you’ve done everything you can...

If it will make you happy

Thank you for your advice! There’s some good points xx

I really am actively trying though, and. I’m actually doing well within my role. But again, this doesn’t go noticed it’s just constant criticism instead of it being constructive.

I actually feel sick at the thought of having to go in tomorrow and having the boss not even so much as pass the room I’m in and acknowledge that I’m there (he sits with everyone else in the main office).
I honestly just feel like a robot rather than a person.

Sounds like a shit company with crap manager, and your boss sounds like a dick.

I'd be applying for new jobs like crazy.

@Sandywandypandy as much as I dislike banding this term around, do you feel bullied by him? You say you're doing well in your role, yet you appear to be being singled out. Being scared to go into work is not a nice situation to be in.

OP you might be being kept separate for positive reasons. Just put your head down and do your best. Good luck

Is it a big company? Can you move to another team?

I don’t think it’s bullying it’s just pure ignorance.
This morning he has came in and completely blanked me again, the other manager has went round and done a shopping list for everyone, hasn’t once ask if I wanted anything. It’s just silly things like this what is really getting to me.

There is only a small team of us 20 tops so there isn’t any where else I can go. I just feel like crying.