I think I hate me, I cant seem to do right for doing wrong. I seem to just pee people off even when I'm trying to help. How do i just not care what people think and just say f...it. Really struggling with being me at the minute. It's not a new thing but just wish I could speak my mind and at least then i would have some self esteem rather than trying to be nice and then getting kicked in the teeth. This probably makes no sense ...just need to get it out there...dont want to tell friends or family ...it brings me the kind of attention i cant really deal with. By the way I'm no saint i have reflected on many times in my life i have just not done the right thing and really regret things I've said or done...through ignorance or design. Here i am at 54 and still not liking or trusting myself ! I just dont feel normal.