I have a project based job that involves lots stakeholders, sign offs, project management, idea generation, supporting other teams and leading my own projects. No day is the same and there is no 'set' way of doing things beyond a few fixed milestones.
I am relatively young for my grade and I think I have always had a bit of a complex about people older or more senior than me knowing whats best/the right way to do things.
I get anxiety about running meetings because I tend to assume that everyone in the room is thinking 'why on earth is she doing it this way' or thinking i'm rubbish. I'm making an effort to be more assertive and confident in the decisions I make, but it's always in the back of my mind that someone will turn around and say 'what on earth were you thinking!'
Anyway, I know it's irrational, and if I wasn't good at my job I wouldn't have made it this far, but that doesn't take away the anxiety I often feel about it, or an overwhelming feeling of inadequacy, like something is always BOUND to go wrong with my projects.
Does anyone have the same experience and how do you manage?