Where I live there's a school at the bottom of my road. It takes about 5 minutes to get there. There's another school a mile away through the park where we live and that was the school I chose last year for my daughter. everything about it seemed better and I was excited about meeting new faces. The schools based on an estate a bit further from where I live so the majority of the people I've never met before.
from September until February I did all the school runs there and back in all weathers. He had a great little routine going and we were always out the door on time at 8 a.m.. then I had to go on some vitamins in early march because I was lacking in b12, iron and vitamin D. I was basically an exhausted mess for a few weeks. I started to do the school runs again after a couple of weeks have been poorly and then lockdown happened.
Lockdown has made me lazier. purely because for the first couple of months we wasn't even allowed to go out more than once a day,so I went from doing 2 hours walking a day to perhaps half an hour every other day. I've I've felt extra tired in lockdown and I feel like I've completely lost my confidence. I've also so massively lost the structure to my day. I didn't mean this to happen it's just the kids have lost their routine to and we've struggled massively with routine. the school day used to tire my eldest out and my toddler out. Now I can't get them to burn anywhere near as much energy as they were doing mingling everyday.
the last few weeks I've tried to walk more. But it's like my body has just hit a wall. I just feel so tired and drained and big walks just make me feel tired and sick. Part of it could be still My vitamin D as that's building up. My irons in range now. my periods have also got worse in lockdown and the symptoms I get make me feel much worse..
Last couple of weeks I've been thinking how September would not be worrying me at all if she was at the closest school. The trouble is she loves the school she's at and so do I. But what if my body just can't function like it used to? I know this sounds a bit over detailed but I'm even worried I will need to toilet on the school run. My digestive system has been all over the place lately. It never used to pee when I was doing the school runs full stop it seems lately like with all the anxiety and worry and health issues I can just get random stomach ache in the middle of the afternoon or whenever.I'm terrified I'll be half way to collect my daughter and suddenly feel like I can't go any further or my stomach suddenly starts hurting.
I'm trying to build myself back up and my partner is going to have a few days off when she goes back to school. I just wondered if anybody can either say they feel the same or has anybody got any advice for me? the thing I want to be able to do the most in the world is take my child to school without anxiety and worry because of lock down and being unwell. I want to be a reliable parent and it terrifies me that I've got to somehow struggle like this because my body doesn't seem to cope anymore. I don't really want to move my daughter to the closest school right now because she's already been through enough and shes happy. She shouldn't have her life altered because of my digestive system and anxiety.
Thanks for reading this and I hope someone can push me in the right direction thank you!