Hi, I seem to have gotten myself into a complete state about an op I am having tomorrow.
It really is minor. An ears, nose, throat endoscopic op to have a look at my eustachian tube and remove a growth way at the back of the nose. I cannot imagine this taking longer than 30 minutes. GA is the only way as the structures are so delicate.
Oh how I know this op will improve my quality of life, no more earache and being half deaf, breathing etc but I cannot get over the fear of the op. The general anaesthetic for some reason has my stomach in knots.
I have never had a GA before and my heart just pounds thinking about it. I am properly terrified I won't wake up from it or I am going to wake up with the tube still in and not able to breathe. I know that sounds over the top but this fear is so intense.
It's my youngest DD's 1st birthday July 24 and I am imagining a catastrophe and my not being there for it and both DDs. I think something got messed up in my brain when I became a mum!
Anything you can tell me or any tips are really appreciated. I am going to have a nice takeout with DH tonight (well before the midnight no food or drinks cutoff!) to try to calm down and do something nice for myself.
I was also reading they can give you some drugs beforehand to sort of take the edge off, what med is this? I think I'll ask for this, that is if it won't make things worse!
Ahhh! This feeling of absolute dread KNOWING this is going to happen tomorrow. Ugh.
Thank you, so sorry please go easy on me! I feel like a proper idiot!