Hi, I hope this is ok to write.. It's hard for me to write about myself, I dont like to drawn attention to myself but I have some feelings I'm not sure how to deal with and I have no one I can talk to. I'm sorry if this is not the place but I just wanted to get another perspective.
So myself like many others I'm sure, find myself unemployed now due to covid19. I was due to start a new job just before lockdown which I was really looking forward to as I was made redundant from my previous job and it took a while for me to find another that fit with my family (oh, 3 kids)
So now I am unemployed again. It's a bit of a long story but I cant ask my husband for money.. he always overreacts when I ask. Not sure why this is, we dont have as many outgoings as others, he is a heating engineer so a good wage.
Anyway so now I have no money and 3 kids at home, feeling pretty worthless. I dont think my husband appreciates how hard it is looking after the kids (3,7,14) and never get mothers day cards (he doent believe in it) I'm used to that but just lately I've been really down with everything, it's all got a bit much, I'm not sleeping, headaches constantly, no sex drive etc.
I stayed up last night til around 2am just crying while everyone else was in bed, then this morning I wake up to my husband touching me and masturbating and now I feel so used and worthless.