Feeling depressed and anxious, and cant even be bothered responding to friend

[JustAnxious]

Hey, don't really know what I want from this.
I am usually such a happy, positive person but coronavirus has brought out a depressing side of me.

I am furloughed, dont know when or if work will pickup (supply teacher).
All I want to do is cry all the time or at least have a constant bubble in my throat.

I am tired of talking or hearing about coronavirus and how restricted the world is.
My friend is a teacher and just messaged me about how is she meant to socially distance her class of 30 children in September, the same conversation we've had 100 times, and I know i'm being unreasonable but when i saw the message, i just thought 'not again'.

I just feel so out of it (if that makes any sense) like everyday I wake up and it's the same old.
I'm applying for jobs but no luck.

I'm just lucky to have such a supportive boyfriend.

I suppose I just want to see if anyone else feels the same or am I on my own?

I’m pretty fed up too, despite my experience of the last 4 months being ok. Husband furloughed so losing money but hopefully job safe. I can work from home and 3 kids taken to home schooling really well. We’re all healthy etc...but I’m fed up and wish everyone would piss off and leave me alone. Not much help but wanted to let you know you’re not alone. I think lots of people are finding it tough x

@Browntile thank you for sharing your experience and I hope you're okay too,
I just needed to feel I wasn't alone

You are not alone!
Handhold! 💐

You’re welcome and I should say I too am well known for being happy and positive and certainly wouldn’t say I’m depressed now. I think mine comes from having 4 other people in the house 24/7 for 4 months when I’m used to being home alone, working in peace. The bloody relentless noise is making me

Can you come clean with your friend that the dreaded topic is getting you down and ask if you can change the subject to an interest you both have in common ?

I have a number of friends with MH issues and whilst I do my best to be supportive and check in with them, just sometimes I really don't want to speak to any of them. I just want to be me, left alone for about a week.

I’m feeling exhausted at the moment and feel like I can’t deal with some of my friends. One keeps posting on Facebook conversations her DDs are having, I snoozed her for 30 day and feel so much better for it. I’m not usually intolerant of people but am struggling at the moment.

I think it's just the fact everything feels so samey and the usual stuff that can take use away from our stresses are away and it's almost like we can't unwind.

My favourite thing to do before lockdown was cinema dates once a week with the boyfriend and I miss those.

I went to do a bit of shopping today and it all felt so 'sad' - constant hand sanitiser every time you walked into a different shop, massive queues outside each shop.
I just went home in the end and did it online.

I am constantly worrying about money. Constantly worrying about what September will bring.

Thank you to everyone for sharing their stories and I hope this other thread brings other people a bit of relief that many people are feeling the same and they are not alone as it has for me

Feel exactly the same, I have lost my mojo and feeling very down tonight.
Over the past couple of weeks I have been withdrawing, quieter at work, not responding to messages from friends and not wanting to speak to anyone. Everything seems to be so fuitile and pointless, what is there to talk about really. I cannot face food shopping, so eating whatever is in the cupboards, reading and watching boxsets and living alone.

It's also fine to give in to the feeling. I get days like that and just read or watch tv. Reckon I'll never get the chance to do nothing again. This is a rare time to not be sociable.