To ask you to help me out if this slump?

[autumnredhead]

So fed up tonight.

I've been stuck at home all week working. Chained to my laptop.

I found out my boyfriend had cheated on me during lockdown. I wasn't there, so at no risk. I don't know all the details, just that he kissed someone. Have been sporadically in touch by text. Flogging a season horse comes to mind. I'll never trust him again. I've stopped messaging him now.

Have a 9 year old DD. Her dad is awful. He's hardly seen her over the past few months. And no plans to see her anytime soon. Extremely verbally abusive to me - so I keep him at arms length.

I just feel so fed up tonight. Bored. Stuck in. Unable to make plans.

How can I pull my self up?

Sorry to hear you’re having such a shitty time of it 😞 when I’m feeling down I try and make a list of the good things in my life, even if it’s comfy bed, children, family etc.

Then accept that you feel rubbish right now but you will survive this. Could you run a nice bath, order your fave takeaway, phone a good friend/family member and do some yoga/meditation xx hope you feel better soon

I'm sorry you're having a shitty time.

Not sure I'm the best person to advise as my life is a bloody nightmare at the mo and I've been single for 4 years but...

Thank your lucky stars you've found out that he's a dick now.

Enjoy having your fabulous daughter to yourself (mine is 15 and she's awesome, definitely one of the few bright points in my life)

Keep telling yourself 'this too shall pass'...I know it's trite and sounds like utter bollocks right now, but it will.

I've not had much time for an enjoyable and enriching lockdown but we've ordered some treats for delivery over the last few months...posh chocs, cheese, pampering goodies, and I've cooked some new things which I enjoyed.

Planning stuff for next year when DD completes her GCSEs by which time hopefully things will be better.

Good book maybe? I write in what little spare time I have ...it's great and much needed escapism. I honestly think it's kept me sane recently.

Thank you so much both for taking the time to reply to me. I do appreciate it.

I have been telling myself that, situations change and it won't feel like that forever. I've also been reading a good book and agree it's a lovely escape.

I feel like it's just the perfect storm with everything at the moment. But YES I have my daughter and I'm going to run a nice bubble bath.

Thank you both, have a lovely evening xxx