She has had a major heart attack. Lives in another country and it has been a very long time since I have seen her. I was only a child. Have kept in contact obviously. I spoke to her the other day and promised to go visit once this virus is over as due to her age I was terrified to visit before it's safe. Now I may not get that chance. Always thought there will be time. My dad lives the other end of the country I am in. Now I don't know if I should dart down to him to be there or if I should try to sort out my children so I can book the next flight to see her. However she may not even make it through tonight. I'm terrified of getting that call and I'm even more scared of my dad getting that call alone. He had a problem with drink when I was younger so I'm worried this could trigger that. I so want to keep my promise and go see her again I just don't know if I will get that chance.