Feeling distance from OH since BLM

[chihuahualady]

I've been with my OH for over three years we have two children together. Throughout our whole relationship I've never looked at him differently and have never experienced the thoughts I'm having now.

The past few days I've researched so much about my Jamaican history and found out so much, my last name is a slave owners name my ancestors were sugar cane pickers ect.

The whole BLM movement has made me feel different, then tonight we watched sitting in limbo on bbc1 about the wind rush scandal.

I feel so much pain and anger and I understand my OH will not feel this way as he isn't black. But just his lack of interest, more excited about McDonald's opening and the shops blardy blah.

Not just him his family post so much crap on Facebook but haven't once thought to do some kind of research or comment about the things that have been going on just absolutely nothing.

I don't know if I'm being unreasonable or I'm just very sensitive.

My husband is of Jamaican heritage and also bears the name of a Scottish slave owner. I watched the Windrush programme tonight and found it very hard to watch, just a terrible way to treat those people who came to help the “Mother” country. I think the recent events have made many people want to stand up and show that they care, even if they can’t know what it feels like and show their support and empathy. Sadly some people don’t, it’s very disappointing but maybe you could explain to your husband and family how it has made you feel? I hope that would help.

How on earth is this a white guilt thread ? The OP is black!
I'm with you with the anger OP, but feel lucky that my husband has been endlessly patient to me ranting, swearing and generally saying a bunch of violent stuff about various people saying racist things so that I can continue to report, ignore and not give them the satisfaction of knowing how hurt I am by it all.
Talk to him, explain why this is such a fundamental part of your life right now and if he's the partner you deserve, he'll try to understand for your sake.

Move on @agentstarling you wont find what you are looking for here