I’ve noticed my boss is often quite specific with me. We’ve got a friendly relationship and I’m good at my job, but she will say things like “wait for the go-ahead from me before xyz” quite often. I thought to myself today... “It’s like she thinks I am a law unto myself”
... and then it hit me that I absolutely 100% AM a law unto myself and always have been. If somebody explicitly tells me not to do something then I won’t do it. Otherwise I just go for it and will interpret the grey areas in my own favour every time. I would’t let a rule or opinion I don’t rate get in my way if I thought I could get round, I’d just try not to get caught. Sometimes, even getting caught is worth it!
I have a pretty strong moral compass by the way, I wouldn’t break the law, hurt anyone or intentionally put anyone at a disadvantage by my actions, I just tend to weigh up the pros and cons for myself and make my own choice which rules I will or won’t respect.
Is this a bad personality trait? I have always been proud of my independent and slightly wacky/maverick streak, but now I am wondering if I should be trying to reign myself in?