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To ask what my perfect job would be based on my brain?

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BoujiSnail · 22/05/2020 17:41

My brain works in a weird way, like a computer with a million tabs open. My current job involves moving very quickly between a number of tasks, keeping all of them in my mind at once. I'm terrible at having one long task which I have to work through e.g. creating a big spreadsheet of data. I constantly lose focus and have to keep doing something else and coming back to it.
I remember one of my old mangers shouting 'can you just finish one task?' at me but in my current role it's actually a strength as my job is very bitty and lots of people are impressed that I manage to keep so many plates spinning and rarely forget anything.
I'm a bit bored in my current role so I wondered if anyone had any suggestions of other jobs which involve similar multitasking skills. Alternatively anyone have any tips on strengthening concentration. I've noticed similar traits in my children and I find it so frustrating so no wonder people often find me hard work!
I can't quite explain it but it's like I have loads of photos in my head and my mind constantly flicks between them making notes. I feel some of my other colleagues minds work like long linear lists, which they slowly scroll down. Thanks in advance!

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Divorcingjack80 · 23/05/2020 12:34

I can imagine that it is incredibly challenging to both work and live with. I am very open about my ADHD with my bosses and colleagues and why I work in the way I do. I invite feedback and discussion around it and am lucky to work somewhere that fosters a very supportive environment around mental health struggles.

AutumnCat · 23/05/2020 12:55

I'm dyspraxic not ADHD but share some similarities with you. What I would say about all these neurodivergence conditions is that not only might a diagnosis bring you validation (as well as grief, its very strange) but also a stronger picture of your strengths and weaknesses and what you can do to master some areas where you're weaker. I was diagnosed through work so didnt have to pay, and from that I got some really fantastic training on memory and organisation, and timekeeping. A diagnosis will hopefully give you a toolbox of new ideas to play with to help you cope better. There are also some great resources online - Google Black Girl Lost Keys or search on Twitter, and also sites like Genius Within.

You sound bright, so dont go thinking you're not just because there are some things you find way harder. The key thing about being neurodivergent is that you have a "spiky profile": where most people's strengths and weaknesses dont vary much (their strongest strength is not a million miles better than their weakest weaknesses), ours diverge a lot more. So on average you're as clever as anyone else, but your cleverness is made up of a few superpowers, and a few things you'll really struggle with. It's not the way the world is designed so it feels quite tough at times, but it doesn't mean you're worse than anyone else, just different. And it does mean you'll also be pretty resilient for having overcome a lot of invisible struggles.

Divorcingjack80 · 23/05/2020 13:07

@AutumnCat This. So much. Also, dyspraxia and ADHD are very often comorbid.

flamegame · 23/05/2020 13:10

One thing I can think of - people with adhd are great generally in pressure situations, project management breaks some peope due to deadlines forever changing and all the pieces that need juggling.

I agree it’s worth doing to have a better understanding of strengths and weaknesses.

I’m clumsy and forgetful but it’s made me a better planner over time and more resilient because if I don’t plan and write it down, I can’t rely on my last minute organisational skills! And if I’ve forgotten it I have to find an alternative or do without.

PineappleUpsideDownCake · 23/05/2020 14:35

Divorcing - I mentioned "doing well at school" as I was under the impression for an adult diagnosis of adhd you had to have evidence of you having it as a child - ie the typical school reports of daydreaming or hyperactivity?

It seems v hard for a woman in her 40s to get diagnosed from looking online (which I have. A lot!) But yes my unravelling was almost exactly as you described - trying to work/ home/kids - cant do it all. attempts at AD medication which seem to make it worse And cannot for the life of me keep on top of my home/ regular coooking. I'm obese and often wonder if medication would help me just keep some control of life.

aufaitaccompli · 23/05/2020 14:54

I hear you. Am waiting on a diagnosis. Been screened by Community Psychiatric Nurse and Social Worker, followed by an initial appointment with a psychiatrist.
As per my troubles, I took ages in sending the school reports to her. In limbo for now due to Covid

I oscillate between ADHD and CPTSD because I've had a dreadful 10-12 years. The symptoms appear to mimic each other, which makes me doubt myself.

People tell me I am really clever, articulate and funny. I don't get how they see these things and not the chaotic, ditzy person I believe myself to be
It's as though I've walked through life with a chronically underdeveloped sense of self. I'm very unassuming but overthink massively.

I'm trying to develop a sense of peace for myself regardless of outcome but some answers would be great.

Oh and OP I work in public sector in a varied role where I have a lot of autonomy. I also fly by the seat of my pants, massively

Good luck!

PineappleUpsideDownCake · 23/05/2020 15:12

I also wonder what is due to abusive childhood and what is adhd as I see they do v.similar things to the brain. My daughter is autistic and I'm sure my dad is.... but the adhd profile seems to match me more than the autistic one. I think.....

I so thought life would be so much better than its ended up at 40 and I dont have a clear path out. I struggle with the simplest things but come across articulate and educated...

Divorcingjack80 · 24/05/2020 08:43

@PineappleUpsideDownCake I can only speak to my own diagnosis experience (I ended up paying for a private consultation, and now have “shared care”, which means my private guy monitors my medication and reviews but the medication is provided through the NHS) but basically the diagnosis criteria is something like “significant impacts life in multiple areas, such as work, relationships, social, family, education etc”.

My school reports were always exemplary on the surface but it was pointed out to me that there was a common theme of getting easy questions wrong and hard questions right, lack of care on details, could do better if paid attention, and a gradual pattern of excelling when younger and then starting to struggle as work became more self-directed. So, for example, top of the class all through primary school, one unexpected B at GCSE, lower A-levels than predicted, was capable of oxbridge but didn’t get in, 2:1 instead of a first etc etc. You just struggle more and more as you don’t have an externally imposed structure. This goes for jobs too. I did not have a problem getting diagnosed but I know a lot of people gave had difficulties through the NHS as they were often not directed to the appropriate specialist. It’s potentially hugely damaging to gather the courage to persue diagnosis only to be told incorrectly “everyone does this, have you tried a to-do list?”

If there’s any way you could find the money for private, it’s worth it. Simply because I started though the NHS and they sent me a massive bunch of forms, I had to fill one out, then I had to post one to my parents , collect them all together and send them back. And no deadline! Nope. Not happening. My private guy does everything by email/online and sends nagging reminders and phone calls until you do it. He knows ADHD.

Divorcingjack80 · 24/05/2020 08:45

@PineappleUpsideDownCake there’s a lot of research indicating that abusive behaviour can significantly exacerbate ADHD symptoms. It’s also hugely genetic. After I was diagnosed, I looked around my family and went, wait a second here.........

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