I'm really starting to get worked up about lock down being lifted. Yes I can't wait to get back to a bit of normality (whatever the new norm is) but I'm absolutely dreading some aspects of it. AIBU to feel anxious about it ?
We have a lockdown baby, she's only 8 weeks. It's been good in a sense as we have had time to get into some sort of routine and bond as a family. I've actually enjoyed not having everyone constantly at the house. Me and the MIL get on most of the time, but she is a bit overbearing. I'm really worried as soon as the lock down is lifted she will constantly be in my house, just randomly. I'm BF so I like privacy when doing this and don't want to have to leave my own living room to feed baby. I should also mention at the start of lockdown MIL turned up unannounced, entered the house with her sister (who doesn't live with her) and acted like they did nothing wrong. I see my parents from garden and through windows etc to maintain social distancing guidelines, and my parents follow the rules and know they can't touch baby or be close for her safety. However I've tried this with his parents and they just pop their hands in the car, touch her feet, her hands, her face and it's really REALLY bothering me!
MIL has constantly asked if she can have baby on her own to look after to give me 'me time' throughout lockdown, to which I've always said no. I've had a good excuse to say no. I worry that once lockdown is lifted I have no reason to say no and it's actually making me really anxious already. I told DH last night that I'm worried how I'm going to feel when people pester me to leave baby in their care, I've spent every waking moment for the last 8 weeks with my baby, I feel like I'm actually going to have some kind of separation anxiety if I'm being honest. Is it normal to feel like this or am I truly being unreasonable.