AIBU. Am i being moody

[Polineast]

I posted this on relationships about an hour ago but no responses. Wondering if anyone here has advice?

.Hi. Me and boyfriend are both 24 and been together 9 months. We aren't living together but living at home with our parents. We are both furloughed so are mostly at home.

It's not been over 2 months since we seen each other. Everything seemed happy and loving up until 2 days ago were everything feels strained but I feel it's me being moody. I did come on my period today but I feel over emotional and really strained.

I can't quite put my finger on what feels different. It just feels like i'm in a mood.
For example, I was happy all day yesterday, we had a call at 6pm and he said he had been playing a game with his friends and this girl plays with his friends regularly over speaker. I then snapped and said I wouldnt be happy if he plays with this girl. Rest of the call was fine apart from I started crying about how rubbish everything is.
Ever since, i've just felt moody. I feel like crying all the time.

And little things that wouldnt usually get to me are getting to me.
Like I hadnt heard off him all day until 8pm. Usually i'm fine about this but today I was bubbling to myself 'he's losing interest', 'why is he ignoring me'.
We then rang at 8pm and things just felt off. I told him I had to go for 1 min. And I cried to myself for 5 minutes. Quickly redid my makeup and then acted like everything was fine.
We then had a 'debate' 'argument' (whatever you want to call it). I said I hope we dont have to wait until the end of the year to see family and friends. He said 'well if it takes a year, it takes a year' and then an argument started where he said I was stupid and being selfish for wanting to see family and friends, and I said I don't get why i'm stupid for wanting to see the people close to me.
And I just feel awful. We usually always end with an "i love you" but today it was just 'bye' 'bye'.

I feel absolutely rotten :(
I don't know if it's my period or whether i'm becoming slightly depressed. I'm just sad :(
Don't even know what I want from typing this, just need a rant

I think you might just need a pick me up. Chocolate or a long bath work for me!

Well yes you're being moody.
Likely due to the situation and your period.
Not an excuse though.

I understand your frustrations, I imagine normally he'd give you a cuddle and it'd be fine?

Have you had any human affection ?

Eating ok? Going for walks? Water? Being kind to yourself?

I have my parents and baby brothers who are amazing but i kind of havent told him how i'm feeling. I've just been putting on a front.
I'm home schooling my brothers but i'm anxious all the time - will i have a job to go back to? I've been applying for other jobs but getting rejection letters.
I've been feeling a bit numb, as in I dont know how I feel. I'm sure most people feel the same but everything feels surreal.

*told them how i'm feeling

YANBU to feel hormonal and be emotional it's a hard time

However YABU to tell him he can't play a game with another girl...if he tried to tell you that you couldn't talk to another guy you would probably consider it controlling and petty. Don't be the jealous type...it never ends well.

Absolutely not ok to say he can’t be playing a computer game with another girl, it’s very controlling.
Sounds like you’re dealing with PMS - not an excuse but it can be tough. Perhaps take a couple of days to recalibrate without contacting him. And talk to your parents about your anxieties, they would want to support and reassure you.

There's a reason i wouldnt be happy with the girl though; we have a mixed friendship group, i have male friends as does he have female friends,
But this girl is a natural flirt and only plays with 'the boys'. She is with a man we all know, not really friends with him but she flirts with other men behind his back.
I don't get good feelings for her so I wouldnt feel comfortable with him playing games with her

He doesnt even speak to her anyway so there's no reason they would be playing the game together so i dont even know why i snapped about it

@Polineast it doesn't matter who she is, or how flirty she, or whether you like her unfortunately etc etc it's still controlling and also it can only boil down to one thing "do you trust HIM? If you do...then NONE of your thoughts about her matter...and if you DON'T trust him then your issue is still not with her. IYSWIM...

But yes you need a hot bath/shower, chocolate and a cuppa and a chat with someone else.

@nowaitaminute yes youre probably right! There's just something about her that irks me but I suppose I can't push that onto him. I was shocked at the way I snapped.

But thank you for your advice

Yes i trust him 100%, so much so that he went on quite a few lad weekends away and I never once felt anxiety or jealous.
I love him to pieces and I hate feeling moody with him. It's like i'm purposely seeking an argument and I hate arguing, especially with him. He is so thoughtful and I don't have a bad word to say about him.
Maybe not seeing each other for 2 months is just a natural strain

@Polineast I hear you, I've been there. It's hard ESPECIALLY when you are separated from each other for so long.

Hopefully, tomorrow you will feel better!

You told him he can't speak to a female? You sound batshit crazy.

I hope he starts playing his game with her everyday to prove a point that you can't control him.

@GingerbreadBiscuits00 okay