Hi I'm new to this so please bear with me
I've been married for 3 years and we dated for a year before that my husband has a promiscuous past but when we met he stopped everything even going out without me even expecting it let alone asking him I was 20 and he (23) was my first boyfriend
My friends and his friends used to hang out as a group and my ex friend added him on Snapchat used to message him generally not knowing he's sitting next to me sending kiss emojis and drawing Willie's and stuff on Snapchat silly things and he would save them and show them to me where as she would save everything else but not her kissie emojis so I stopped speaking to her and thought he was honest as he showed me things I wouldn't have known about otherwise fast forward 1 year after marriage she gets in contact with me saying don't know why you've cut me out etc and then told me 3 weeks before me and him got married he kissed her and she said she rejected him begged her not to tell me when I found out I was heartbroken was very close to ending it he convinced me to make it work and we did he was always transparent with his phone social media gave me passwords even before he kissed her which because I had trust issues I would always check and never found anything
It took me about 2 years to really stop thinking about that often and being hurt and trusting him, February this year and I'm 8 month pregnant (after losing a baby in April last year due to sepsis and ending up in icu)
And we have a bug argument over something petty and he leaves the house takes his clothes and goes to stay with a friend of his next day I'm getting a horrible gut feeling and also had a dream about him cheating brushed it off as insecurity and thought he just needs to cool down and he'll come home and apologise that feeling didn't go away all day so I logged into his social media didn't find anything until I got to Snapchat and saw a message from a woman and location saved I called him and asked him whose that woman he started denying and locked me out of sc by changing password I already screnshotted so added her off my own account and messaged her she told me they had just started talking that day off his friends badoo account and it was all sex talk she sent me screenshots and that he added her on sc and video chatted and he sent a dick pik after he came home finally admitted when confronted with proof only found out weeks after daughter was born that she was naked in the bath him asking to see her bits she showed her boobs and talking about what they'd do to each other then when call ended he sent the pik after that they didn't speak a few hours later is when I checked his sc.
Again he's begging for forgiveness but ever since we've been up and down he's trying his best promised it was the once will never happen again etc she was a older woman late 30s and now I'm in pieces so insecure and hurt again crying my eyes and snapping at him constantly I need some advice on how to move forward I really don't want to be a single mum to newborn and don't want her to have a broken home like the one I've come from but I can't seem to get over this