I’m looking for some hope I think.
I’m a 42 year old woman. I have had various relationships over the years. I fell in love at 22 with a boyfriend who I was with for 3 years. Unfortunately he broke up with me and it completely broke my heart. After that I tried to meet other people. I had a couple of brief flings and 2 years later met a new boyfriend.
My feelings for the new boyfriend were different. I didn’t feel that same intense love but I thought that was normal because this relationship seemed more mutual.
Fast forward. I married the new boyfriend. Had 2 boys with him. Then after 14 years together I met someone else. Someone who completely blew me away. It was those same feelings that I had experienced for the boyfriend I loved.
I was married, didn’t have or want an affair. Other guy was married too. I split up with my husband because it wasn’t fair. Other guy stayed with his wife which I understand and respect. So nothing happened between us.
So now I see that I fell in love aged 22, again aged 40.
Now I am single. Will I ever fall in love again? Is it possible? Not that ‘settling’ love but actual proper deep love like I had at 22 and 40.
I’m concerned that there was 18 years between these feelings. Scared that it could never happen again. Maybe I just got really lucky to even experience it twice.
FWIW I am still very close friends with the 2 men from 22 and 40.
AIBU to hope I could find love a third time?