Hi all. I keep having a recurring dream, and I'm not sure what it means. I've had it on and off since moving into my home (a Georgian flat) 5 years ago.
So, in real life, I live here alone with my 3 kids and pets.
In the dream, I discover a couple of additional rooms. They're not inside, or directly attached to, my flat. But they are attached to the block. You have to go outside a little way to access them.
This should be an ideal scenario, and a bloody good discovery! However these rooms kind of fill me with dread. They have bare, concrete walls. I suppose there is an air of slight neglect to them. None of the neighbours seem to be able to fill me in on their purpose.
You know those dreams you get where you forget about your baby, or you neglect a pet, and you have a feeling of dread and revulsion?
Well, that's the feeling I have about these rooms in my dream. Mostly I forget they're even there (in my dreams - just to reiterate, they're not real!) until I revisit in my dream. And all the while I think 'I could really do something with this extra space' but I never do, and nor do I want to. I've never taken my children into them, so it's always me visiting them alone.
Last night's dream saw a turn! When I went in, I saw that there was a scruffy bed in there. Some books on the wall. And a dining table with chairs. As I was leaving, a family came in, presumably to eat there. I held the door open for them as I left, and smiled at them as they entered.
I can't even put into words how I feel about this dream. The residual feeling from it is generally one of extreme unease.
I have never been prone to happy dreams, and often mine are strange! But other than my teeth all crumbling away, this is the only recurring dream I ever have.
I am happy in my flat, as it's in a wonderful location. However it is old, and things do sometimes go wrong. This makes me anxious at times - disproportionately so - as I'm the only adult here to put things right. And I feel like I'm ignoring problems like a bit of damp, because it needs a cash injection I don't have! Generally though, I love living here.
I don't have any struggles with my mental health, well, no more than your average person. And I have enjoyed lockdown so far, in good spirits. But the past couple of days have seen a dip in my mood, as I'm lonely and ready for this to be over.
Please go gently!
Thanks 