My self esteem has plummeted since lockdown and I am quite lonely. I am looking in the mirror and seeing someone who is old, fat and less attractive than I thought. I can’t think of anything interesting to say and I am so preoccupied with relentless childcare and work that I don’t have much time to do all the extensive reading / Netflix binges / taking up a new hobby everyone is talking about. I feel stupid and uninteresting, helpless and powerless. My friends have gone quiet (maybe feeling the same.)
Part of me is thinking did I really rely so much on other people’s views and reflections of me in person for my own self esteem? Have I fallen off a cliff of attractiveness, intelligence and interestingness?
Or are we all feeling like this?