Going to try and give as much info as possible but also try to stay anonymous, Posted here for traffic.
I'm scared of my son, and I'm so miserable that I don't see much point in living anymore as I don't have any kind of life anyway, my existance is pointless, I just live to serve my son and all his needs. He is in his 20s and suffers mental health issues, he refuses all froms of medication, he is paranoid, aggressive, manipulative, spins things around to suit himself, tells people he was abused as a child resulting in the way he is, he threatens to hurt me, spits in my face, constantly lies, tells me he needs help with things then tells his mental health team that he doesn't want my help, telling them I am forcing him into something, then the next day tells people his family never helps him and we don't care about him.
He doesn't pay his bills, I am contantly setting up new payment plans for him and then he doesn't pay it again, doesn't eat, doesn't buy food, blows all his money on the day he gets paid then asks me for my money so he can get food. Not one single day goes by without a new problem or drama that needs sorting out.
If I ever say no to him I get threats, he has smashed my car windows, he calls me and leaves voicemails shouting at me down the phone, he constantly makes threats when he doesn't get his own way that he is going to go out and kill people, I have been on to the the police many times, have log numbers, his mental helath team is aware of all of the above but nothing ever changes. I have blocked him but he just shows up at my house.
What do I do? I can't live like this anymore but all I ever get from people is "He's your son, you can't just abandon him"