Jealous of people with friends

[paerol]

Does anyone else experience this?
I'm actually really down about this this morning.

There's several people who I've messaged on regular occasions during lockdown (and before) just to 'check up' and see if they're okay.
I feel like no one (including these people) check up on me. If they do, it's very rare and almost surprises me to see a message.

Everyone is making their plans for social time and 'drinks' etc etc for after lockdown and I just know none of these people I'd class as friends will invite me anywhere unless I make a hint.

If I didn't speak to them first, I probably wouldn't speak to them at all, but if I don't speak to them, I literally have no one apart from my DP.

Does anyone else feel like this?
I feel really envious of people with friends this morning and that sounds like the saddest thing ever 😂

I don't have any real friends, only people I work with and other parents from DC school. Now there's no work or school.

BIL has a huge friendship group. His group from college still are close 20+ years on. Every birthday or nephews party he has a huge crowd once their partners and DC come along. I always leave his celebrations feeling slightly sad for my own lack of friends.

I think it’s difficult to make and maintain friendships as an adult. I’ve probably only made one real friend in adulthood but she isn’t someone I see very often. DH’s friends are all from school.

I'm with you op. I have one friend. Ish. I know she uses me.

I'm very bitter about it. I hated school because I was left out and ostracised, if not outright bullied. Couldn't wait to leave. Then I found out that I'd never have another chance to have friends.
Work colleagues and work friends but they're not really are they?

All those groups of kids that made fun of me or avoided me, moved two seats down should I sit by them at dinner time etc- the girls who rolled their eyes and pouted because I'd been paired with them. I should have tried harder to make those nasty cruel bitches my friends. Because they are still all friends. I see them together out and making plans and girls trips away etc. They have people. And I'm still alone.

I have just a small handful of good friends. I don't mind too much as I'm not really into going out in the evenings and I'm pretty busy during the day. It also keeps things really simple. No complications. These friends are true friends. I'm friends with a colleague at work, don't see her socially, but she messaged me as I'd been a bit quiet on remote work chat, to ask if I was ok and could she help in any way. I was so touched. So what I'm trying to say is just 1 or 2 quality friends go alon way. I've recently started going to 2 running groups (obv not at the mo) and have got to know a few people from there, maybe have a look at groups around you, and when the lockdown is over you could perhaps join in?

@Waitingforadulthood I relate to this so much.
Always excited to leave school. Didn't keep in touch with anyone because I wanted a complete fresh start.
And now I've got no one and the people I were remotely close to in high school are all still close and I'm always jealous and upset about it.