This is my 5th week on furlough. Last week was absolutely utter shite, really struggled every single day so on the weekend I decided that I have a to do list for Monday and I have been ticking lots off things off which is great however I can't help it but still feel sad...
I am worried about my job and what people think of me. I started my new job this year so I barley settled and then boom, Covid 19...
In worried cause I can't contribute in any ways at work and a lot of my colleagues are still working. I am worried what they think... I also have some other colleagues who have also been furloughed but still seem to be involved in many projects etc - know this from our whatsapp group messages. I'm a bit torn about this... like they are not doing anything major but still seem to have a lot of contact with non furloughed colleagues and sending the odd email. I'm not saying/ doing anything as I don't want to be the reason why my company doesn't get the 80% back from the government... in case if there will be an audit 🤷🏻♀️ But I feel left out, worthless and useless. And not sure how this will all work out...
I know I'm not alone, but it almost feels like it. My partner is flat out busy with his project - which is great for him! But it feels like I'm the only person not working, lots of people not respecting the lockdown out and about and the government is not really telling us what we should expect. I appreciate no one knows but I am feeling so lonely and sad and not sure what to do 😔