Aibu? Bereavement and grief

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Three months ago my Mom passed, she had many problems and I posted on the bereavement area here a bit but now I don't post coz I'm finding I am feeling like people post that their mom or poppa have just died and I think I kinda wish it wasn't three months since my mom passed cos I don't want it to have been three months it's all going too quickly. I don't post cos I don't wanna be a insensitive bitch but I am to feel it at all thinking that but reading it I know I'm not the only one with a mom or pop passed.

Aibu to feel like this cos I feel so bad about it and think it's wrong of me and I can't stop feeling like it.

You will never forget your Mom. Time will pass and there will be hard situations like the birth of a child or the marriage of someone and you will wish your Mom could be with you to see this event.
It is sad to lose our loved ones but we have to go on as best we can.

The feeling of loss doesn't just go away because a specific time has passed. Initially it will be all one can think about, which is normal, but as time goes on, life gets in the way, and you begin to find that perhaps you are thinking about other things for great chunks of time, but the bereavement is always there at the back of your mind. Anyone who thinks or says that you should be 'getting over' a death probably has not had anyone close to them die, and has no idea how it feels.
Have you got people (or siblings) who knew your mum to talk to? I found (still find) this very helpful, because you can share memories and laughs.