Not to miss anyone in particular

[formyboys]

Ok so six weeks in I am alarmed at the idea of not seeing my parents for the foreseeable but there isn't really anyone I'm desperate to see. I feel quite sad about that. We live in an area that we haven't lived that long (a few years) and the friends I've made at the kids school whilst nice aren't friends. I don't feel I have much in common with any of them. And I fell out with someone I thought I was close to as lock down began. Who hasn't been in touch. I think it's taken this lock down and the constant WhatsApp's for me to see what some people are really like. It makes me feel even more lonely to realise this. We are rural so don't see lots of people for months at a time. So it feels quite normal in lots of ways. The children's schooling and lack of routine is the only hard thing about this. But will I be having a big party after all of this is over? Probably not. If anything I want to have less to do with people than I did before. Is this depression and isolation talking? I worry about my mental health at the best of times...

No idea what you’re usually like so can’t say, but if you don’t have close friends then not really surprising you’re not missing anyone

My husband is working from home for the time being, so I see a lot more of him than usual, but I haven't really felt any pressing need or lack in my life, when it comes to other people.

Normally, my family would've had a big gathering on Easter, but I didn't even feel more than a passing twinge or two at missing that, either. I'm very introverted and am more or less satisfied with my current situation, as quiet and isolated as it is.

That said, if you feel there's something missing in your own life, maybe it's time to make an effort to meet more people, once that's possible again.

If it's more that you feel like you "should" be missing people, try not to worry about it. There's no right or wrong way to be, when it comes to how much or how little "other people" we need in our lives. (I suspect that most people won't actually be hosting huge parties when this is over, anyway.)

@NeutrinoWrangler your last paragraph basically hits nail on head. I'm thinking it's odd I don't really miss anyone. If anything I feel irritated to when I hear from some people. I don't know why. I think there is a lot missing but it's not something I could easily fix before let alone now... Thanks for replying.