It's Saturday night. I'm bored, lonely, miserable and anxious. Hope you are all doing better then me

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This sucks.

I feel like a good cry but I don't have any tears left.

All alone here save the cat and been out twice (to a shop) since March.
Groundhog Day. In the middle of a horrible divorce too. Will this heady mix of boredom and fright ever end?

Yes I have the permanent dread too.

Trying to feel a bit better today.
Took a beta blocker early on.
Had a latte from my coffee machine a lovely lady from mn gave me!! That was so kind. Also reading a book a friend from work sent me. I shouldn't complain , I'm really lucky.
I'm just a bit mired in myself just now, I'm a solitary person anyway but too much time alone sort of does me in. I need distraction from myself, friends, coffees out, long chatty walks. Not this permanently worried and scared.
I don't have any extended family. Parents are dead too. All a bit dire.

Anyway I hope those of you reading this have as good a day as you can

Stop watching the news for a start. It won’t help your anxiety and you’re feeding into your anxiety by doing it. You know this.

Read a book. Take up knitting. Find another distraction. You need to constantly help yourself when you have anxiety. I have it too

OP, I'm late to the party (or not) but if you like documentaries, you must check out Tiger King on Netflix. I won't say it'll put your worries into perspective but it WILL distract you because it's, well, incredible. Take care.

A bit of Classic FM, The Archers or Gardeners Question Time never fails to soothe and I am self medicating with carbs and all afternoon wine sessions. Not the healthiest suggestion but without my medical support and friends, I'm focussing on coming out of this alive and sane and anything else is a bonus.

Box sets during the day and engaging book at bedtime. Book can be trashy if necessary.
News once a day only!

Yes keep the news to once a day will certainly help. I'm going to try Netflix later when I can get the TV to myself. And I have a great book thanks to my friend.
Also I need to try and eat and drink regularly, not exist on snacks, toasties and tea all day long...

I'm sorry you're struggling OP I'm on my own too and it's really hard when you're having a bad day and you just want to see someone.

Do you have any friends you can call? Don't know about you but I usually find that even a quick chat can lift my spirits for the day and make it feel a bit less like I'm completely alone.

If you like factual TV then maybe you would find podcasts or radio documentaries interesting? This American Life is a good one to start with that covers all sorts of topics. It's not the same as having actual company but I think sometimes hearing a voice can be enough to help you feel like you're not completely alone.

Oh SSD just read you recent comments and sending you such a virtual hug. Please please please don't despair. This WILL end you will be ok.

Right you need some serious planning each day I think. I'm not sure waiting u TIL evening to walk is best, as you have all day at home. At the risk of being controversial, I think that given your mental health risk, you should be going first thing in the morning and then also in the evening if you feel like it. Or turn one of those walks into an essential shopping trip if feasible.

Right. You MUST take vitamin supplements. Multi gummies for immunity are good. And 1000 iu of vitamin D. This will honestly boost your mood significantly (well it has mine).

Turn yourself into a health and beauty project. Take your vitamins and go gut your walk. Have a shower. Stand in the water and just enjoy it.Use body scrub and body lotion. Lose yourself a little in the sensual. And think about the strength and beauty of your body.

I too was shivering with fear 24/7 until I started to think about my strength. The vitamins and exercise and body care will all boost you.

Seriously watch The Durrells. It is all sunshine and feeling and is also very funny. We have it on loop
in the kitchen. It makes us feel we might be in Corfu.

And your DH - put him to use! Would he give you a relaxing massage? Even just rub cream in your feet after a bath? Human touch is so reassuring. Please think about appealing to him (I don't know of course what kind of a relationship you have, but this is a time to take comfort in each other).

You need to build up the time each day when you feel the deeply reassuring flood of oxytocin. Whatever does it for you.

I should say I've suffered from totally debilitating anxiety in the past. And yes the virus business set me off too. BUT the way through will always be there in exercise and loving the strength of your body.

It ain't over yet. Your body has a very strong drive to be fine. It is fine. If you haven't got the virus now and you stay safe until there's a vaccine and or cure, you WON'T get it.

But the best distraction is the Durrells. And Gilmore Girls! Try that! And Brothers and Sisters with Sally Field is amazing.

I meant go out for your walk not gut it!!

Thank you so much for your replies.
I'm not alone, I have dh and ds here. I'm lucky I know. But we all seem to be doing our own thing just now, like flatmates. And it's lonely. But I'm not alone in that sense, sorry if I came across wrong.

I'm having a not arsed kind of day today. I'm not going to beat myself up over it. I haven't done my daily yoga. I haven't been for a walk.

But dp just put a pot of coffee on and we're settling in to watch Going Postal.

I have felt miserable since I woke up this morning
Have a list of things to do and am just working my way through it
Normally if O am feeling down working through a list of mundane tasks helps me
Also got a video call with pals later
Working tomorrow so it will be tea and cake rather than wine
Stay strong everyone

I didn't want to read and run. I'm so sorry things are hard. I've felt very down for long stretches (currently medicated for it, and feeling better) and it's just awful. Please accept my solidarity and hope things get better for you soon

Thank you. I've felt a bit better today. Hope it lasts.