I don’t like to go to the doctor at the best of times and I’d really rather go nowhere near the place just now but I’m feeling a little worried.
By way of background I have two children, 5 and 2.5. Both were section babies (first one after a nightmare of a labour and failed forceps, second was an elective). I was a bit of a mess internally after the first one. Extension on my scar, a lot of scar tissue, adhesions etc. Second section went smoothly but took a long time due to the presence of scar tissue.
About a year ago I developed a hard lump on my left hand side. It’s pretty much on my section scar. I can feel it when I press down on the area. I went to the GP when I first noticed it. They weren’t alarmed, thought maybe some kind of infection. Prescribed antibiotics, nothing changed. I would love to say I pursued it further than that but I’m afraid I didn’t. Life was so busy with two kids and work etc and I just never found the time (yeah, I know).
It only flares up when I’m on my period so I was kind of assuming it was a bit of endometriosis and didn’t give it much thought. The area becomes tender and sore and I can feel the lump but when my period stops it all calms down.
But now I have to acknowledge that it’s getting worse. In the last couple of month I’m finding that it is taking longer and longer to calm back down again. I’m now a week after finishing my last period and it still hurts. It’s more painful than it was. It’s making me not want to go running etc. which it has never done before.
I’m frightened, to be honest. I haven’t told my husband that it’s getting worse. He knows about the lump and has previously moaned about me not getting it checked out. I’m also frightened to go anywhere near a GP/hospital right now.