To not want any more but want more babies

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I'm 38. I have three children. I DO NOT want anymore. Yet sometimes I wish I could do it again or do it over. I'm a bottle of wine in so I can admit to it but otherwise I tell people I'm done.
I don't think I want to start again. Ds is almost 5 and struggling through all this. I found babyhood really traumatic but there's a tiny thread of broodyness. How do I get past it? No chance of more as dh had the ship a few years back.

How you get past it is very straightforward: don't have unprotected sex.

Sorry, missed that your DH has had the snip. Well, that's fine then. You don't need to worry about it.

It’s weird we are not having another yet I can’t get my head around DS being an only child. It’s a strange feeling

Can you volunteer to run a toddler group? The novelty of cutting up grapes really small and washing toys every week forever may snap you out of it. :-)