I am an NHS worker. I'm usually upbeat, from the beginning myself and my friends/colleagues have approached the pandemic with a positive outlook. We will work hard, extras, late, not take a break, do whatever it takes to get our patients through this. I felt invincible. I'm young and fit, I'll come in contact with Corona but I'll be fine. But just today, half my team are off sick with Corona, either confirmed or suspected awaiting swab results. My work load is double, I'm a specialist in my area so people can't just be drafted in, the referrals with Covid are coming in thick and fast with no sign of slowing and there are 3 healthcare workers in ICU ventilated. 1 died last week. I feel like tomorrow I'm going into the lions den, I might be next. I'm not usually dramatic but these nurses/doctors on ICU are also fit and healthy like me. They didn't expect to be vented. And yet Britain seems to be relaxing, there's more traffic on the roads, tubes full, construction work back on, shops re-opening. I don't know what the answers are, lockdown can't last forever but please consider what's the reality for key workers. I don't want praise, I'm not even considered frontline in my role. I just needed to vent before I go to bed.